Rest in Peace Grandma
Today was the second day I was at the hospital with my family. We all stood around her bedside watching her breath, knowing that soon she would be gone. It was a heart-breaking site to see her in this state of vulnerability. She always hated when people felt bad for her because it made her feel weak, and the idea of being weak wasn’t what she wanted people to know her for. But to be honest she has been a huge influence these past 6 months.
In late November she went to the hospital because of a stomach problem and had to get serious surgery that changed her daily routine completely. Every Sunday I visited she was in constant pain and always stayed in bed because it was hard for her to get out and walk around. My uncle told me that she didn’t want to have surgery, the pain was too much to bear. She wanted a pill to take all the pain away along with her life. Luckily my parents, aunts, and uncles changed her mind and she stayed in our lives for another grueling 6 months. She held on strong, digging deep so she could watch over us, the grandchildren, for as long as she could. I am grateful that she went through 6 months of that so she could stay in my life, watching me grow and go through my last year of highschool.
But today at the hospital we all knew she wasn’t going to last long. Her body wasn’t absorbing any water or food anymore. The doctors told us that it was just a matter of days before she passed. I spent a long time sitting in that room watching her breath, hoping that after that exhale there would be another inhale of air. Unfortunately there wasn’t another breath and that’s when it all came crashing down. The tears that I had been holding in from the other night came bursting out. The woman who had taken care of me for most of my childhood, spoiled me to death with food and money for ice cream, and who I loved was now gone. To the right of me, sitting in a chair, I saw my grandpa bawling loudly, begging for her to wake up. It was painful to see him cry over her and know that she was gone.
It hurts that she is gone but I know that it was for the best. She is up in heaven now, at peace and watching over us. She was a strong fighter and a loved one that will always be missed. Everywhere in Oakland Chinatown now will bring back memories of her and I walking downtown to get lunch. I love you grandma and you’ll forever be in my heart.
You approached me, in shock, saying “oh my god you exist.” It was like you thought it was impossible for you to talk to me, but it turns out I was the one that was tongue twisted. I kept looking up the ceiling, down at my phone and behind your head. I knew the minute I made eye contact with you,…
Driving home from a spontaneous trip to Quickly’s,
I’m just chilling with the window down and all of a sudden I see something drop into the car.
I look down to my right in the general area and I see a bee on the door.
Now being me, someone who is deathly afraid of any type of bug, I freak the…
Other than that it was a good drive :D
